Growing Moments for Kira.

On Wednesday evening I was very disheartened. It was my task to bid James farewell. I didn't want to do this. I only remember one time in our whole marriage James has left overnight.. and that was to go camping.. and that was only one night.. This would be four! As James kissed me one last time, a tear strolled down my face. I was going to be left all alone. I don't know why this troubled me as much as it did, some may think I have co dependance issues-and I probably do a little! Who better to get attached to then your husband and best friend right? Right.

I got back in my car, and started driving towards our home. I felt kind of empty. I went to Subway to cheer me up and got salad, and to my surprise... it did cheer me up! I went home, turned on the tube and ate my salad! It was tasty, marvelous and might I add healthy! Things weren't so bad after all.

Thursday morning came with a vengeance however. My alarm went off at 4:00 AM and my knees were throbbing. I texted my friend and told her I wasn't sure I wanted to go to the gym because I was sore... She knew I would feel guilty later and texted me "Just take it lightly... you'll fell better! Just don't over do it!" Wow. Thank goodness for honest friends. She was right. So i got sleepily got dressed and went to the gym. I didn't run.. I just took it easy on my knee and did the elliptical instead. I talked to my other friend who suggested I foam roll my knee to see if that helped.. I told her I would try it first thing Friday.

After I was done, I reluctantly got ready for work... I didn't know how I was going to do this!!! After much consideration I decided I wanted to take a personal day on Friday.. so I requested it off. After that I went to work and kept busy.

Later I called my friend Danielle to chit chat. She lifted my spirits and made me feel better. I drove to Walmart to grocery shop. My goal was to spend less money then we have recently on grocery shopping.. and with a little extra planning..I accomplished it. I put the groceries away and thought to myself.. "Wow... today was not fun, but I am really proud of myself for getting them done regardless."

Friday morning my alarm went off again at 4 AM. I got up, got dressed and went to the gym. I went straight to the back room and foam rolled my knees. Let me just pause for dramatic affect.... IT. HURT. SO. BAD!!!! I was desperate to get my knees working and feeling better so that I could run. I wanted to stop, but I did it a couple of times on each knee and a miracle happened. I stood up and to my surprise all the pain vanished! I did some sit ups and then ran! I was so happy! This was a great way to start off my day.

When I was done I went home and relaxed for a while. Then a text appeared on my phone from my friend Keira stating that she was free today. I was so surprised and excited! I got ready, ran some errands, and then I went over to her house. Let me tell you something about Keira... She is one of those people that just everyone loves and really wants to aspire to be. She has such strength and has gone so far in life already! We were friends in high school and it had been a few years since we had got the time to visit since then. She once wrote on her blog about having "REAL conversations" with other women, and I always wanted to be honored to have one with her. I didn't want to talk about the superficial things of the world or the fluffy things that don't really matter... I wanted to get in the mud and get dirty! Well let me tell you.. That's exactly what happened! We didn't do much other then talk and walk around the mall, but sometimes I think we let ourselves get to distracted and we forget to communicate with others! I was so glad to have such a long and heart felt talk as friends. That means more to me then anything else!

After that, I picked up my Mommy dearest in Highland. I took her out to eat at Jaxies and we watched "When in Rome" together. I love my her so much and I worry about her health. She doesn't walk well what with the MS. This was the case also that night. I had to help her walk around. It's great to be able to serve your mother.. someone who's given you life. Her and I don't always get to see each other that often (even though we live close).. and sometimes we don't always connect or see eye to eye... Yet she is still my Mom and I love her, just as I know she loves me! Thats something I have learned... You have to build your own relationships with others, and I really want to build mine! We had a great time and she stayed the night.

Saturday morning I went to the gym and ran side by side with my friend Jessica! We laughed and chit chatted and then her and I too had a "real conversation". She always gives me such perspective and depth on how to take on the world! I loved it. We both were struggling a little to get our mileage done with, but we helped and encouraged each other. I think thats why I love the gym. You're guaranteed a endorphin high and you find friends who don't see you with your make up on, and help you get through the next 60 minutes of pain... Thats true friendship right there!

When I was done, I went to the gas station and got my Moms favorite dunford chocolate donuts for breakfast and then later Cliff stopped by took her home. It was a great day already so far.

I cleaned the house and got ready as quickly as I could. I texted my friend Lacy and drove over to her house to meet up. We drove over to this wood place and bought some scrapbook/wood letters and mod podge. I told her I had never gone to hobby lobby before so we stopped and got some more accessories there. WOW!!! What a place! I think that is girl heaven... if they had chocolate cake there I don't know if I would have ever left.

We checked out.. drove to johnny's to get a drink and then went to my place to craft up! Oh my gosh.. crafting takes a long time... first you have to paint the letters, the let them dry. Then pencil the letters, and by that time it was six aclock! Honestly.. I thought we would be DONE by then and so I invited her to come to cafe rio with me!

I had a blast! We stood in line and then brought it back to my place. We sat crossed legged on the floor and just laughed and laughed and laughed some more! Then it was back to craft time. We cut out the letters. Modge podge them on.. and then started doing all the final touches... We didn't get done until 11:30! (Granted... we made a few mistakes and went to JoAnnes for back ups) I took her home and took a deep breath. I don't think I've had THAT much fun since high school. It was a really good reminder to me.. that I really can just let loose once in a while.. and not worry what the world thinks! I can be myself!

Today, I got up for church. I paid our tithing, went to young women and came home put a pot roast in the crock pot. I am SO excited for James to come home. This time apart from each other was not as hard as I thought it would be... but it really gave me the chance to step up to the plate and show the team what I am made of.

I am Kira Janie Morris.. and I can:

*Wake up early in the morning

*Go to work and stay busy

*Stay on a budget

*Have meaningful conversations

*Run and work out.. HARD.

*Form relationships with family, and make memories that will last a life time!

*Craft

*Hold church callings

*Fix a home cooked meal.

*Relax and I can have fun despite what is going around me or who I am with.

I know I can do these things.. because I did them this week!

I finally finished the below one:

Its not perfect. I need to glue some of the bling back on.... but for my first time... I am giving myself credit. Staying true to my goal of making a craft for my house.. I did it!