Life Ever Changes.

I think I have said this before, but ever since my Dad died and we moved up to Spanish Fork, I have always associated change to be bad thing. Even though the following months and years lead wonderful happy and some of the most highlighted times in my life, I still get discouraged when change comes about.

I think we all are like that to a point. We like things the way they are, and since we are Celestial beings, we are use to things lasting for forever and when something changes or dies, we often sometimes are sad or upset.

Well Recently... Some changes have happened in my life.

1-The past few months, I've had to adjust to a very sick husband. This has been a very scary change for me. I wont go into too much detail, but I will say he has been in a lot of pain after meals, and his diet has changed dramatically.  I know James is young, and I know I am young too--but you just never know what life can throw at you. The Last couple weeks, I would sleep by James and I would hear him breathing. It was so tender and sweet just to know my sweetheart was alive. The Lord has really taught me what is really important.
WELL-
This past Friday, My husband went into the hospital and a very mild procedure done. He had a colonoscopy. This checks your colon digestive health to see if there is any cancer, or anything else that might be wrong. Well the test results came back and he is Cancer FREE. However they did say they saw some swelling and irritation in his colon. We are relieved for James, and will be doing some more test for food allergies and etc. While we do not know what been causing the irritation we are thankful to be where we are now. Whatever he has can likely be helped, treated, prevented or cured. Thank you for all your prayers.

2-I no longer teach primary anymore. I am a little sad. I feel like I was just getting to know the kids and that I could have been a better teacher. I really hope the kids liked me. They were challenging and very difficult but none the less cute. I loved when they would tell there little stories and show me the coloring projects they worked on.  The last month or so I had teach every week and it was very hard( I lost my partner) , but I did get to know them better. I got to see them every week. I asked James to help me and he was great. He really helped settle the kids down--which made me feel he will be a great dad. :) This week I asked if James would talk, and admittedly I really thought I was going to have to step in and teach, but he did a fantastic job. We took a picture and had oreo's.

3- I am been called the secretary in Young Womens. I wont lie--I am really nervous and anxious, but I do remember *MY* own YW's experiences and I loved it. I hope that I can be a good example and be able to be someone the girls can like and be friends with. I feel I have big shoes to walk in, but I know Heavenly Father will help me. So I pray he will.

 It may sound boring to run in a circle but it is beautiful

4- I have been running. I have been doing this for months.. off and on but 2 things are slightly changing. One-The weather is getting nicer and two-I am not sore too much. I am not fast, and I its still not easy, but it seems my legs have adjusted and know what to do now. I wish I were good at running.. like most of my friends are.. but its harder then it looks. I cant do long distances or have much confidence, but its something that I know with much time and patience I can get better at.

5-This is really hard to admit, but I am starting to see myself for who I truly am.  I still have so many weaknesses, struggles, and anxieties, but I am very slowly starting to see the girl that I am. A girl who has gone through hard things, but a girl that  CAN DO hard things.

I am young and I desperately want to have kids and a family. I do. Sometimes I wish it were here now, but I know that right now I am here to learn and be the best person I can be. So that's what I will do.


Here are some fun pictures.

These are some girls that I know will help me get through anything. They are my BEST friends.  

This is my cute little class! I will miss you guys SO much. 

We have so much fun in my class ;)