My pump arrived
I ordered my vaporizer and baby bouncer.
So really all I need is nursing bras and sweat pants.
I went to the doctor yesterday. Looks like I've progressed a little, but not by a lot. Which is actually a relief... (I was worried Id go really early)
I'm having a blah day.
James and I have worked SO HARD.
Recently we have been trying to refinance our house.. and it works out it will be a huge blessing, but so far it's proved to be daunting and frustrating. They keep asking us to send in more information and keep changing what they can actually do for us.
Another thing that's been stressful (but a blessing) is my husband got a new job at Nu Skin. He will be a security guard. This will a little bit of a pay raise, and great for his resume.
He has kept his taxi dispatch job for the time being.. which will help with $$$ when Im on maternity leave, but its quite stressful right now as hes still in school and graduating with his associates applied degree in May. So we are trying to get that all figured out too.
It's just a lot. I don't see him too often, and I miss him.
It's been a big year for us. Miscarriage. Pregnancy. Job change for me (twice within the company). Job changes for James. Paying off a lot of debt, refinancing our house, James finishing school, and lastly having a baby.
I think I might post about all the hard work and dedication the both of us have really done. I'm actually extremely impressed with how we've dug deep and reached within ourselves to find that kind of strength...
Now that almost everything is completed and there is nothing to keep my mind focused,, I'm getting a bit stir crazy.
I feel I'm at my limit. "My limit" isn't the right wording, but its all I can think of. I don't know how to word it. I'm not like super depressed or anxious (certainly I was waaaaaaaaaay more paranoid and freaked out in the previous months when there was lots of uncertainty.).. its more like the opposite of what I was feeling before. I feel drained of almost all emotion.
Just blah.
I just hope all the hard work , sacrifice, and dedication to make our lives and our daughters life wonderful pays off.
I do have faith that it will... it's what keeps me going ! 24 days left :)
1 comment:
I think your spiritual muscles in this area are aching and tired. You don't want to quit everything, you just need to shift, you need to stretch and shift to a different stage. Just a change of pace and a different view. I've felt that way, too. You have experienced almost every one of the highest stressing events a person can have, all in one year! Deaths, financial crisis, even the good stuff, like the house and graduation and a baby, they're on the life events stresses list, too! Now's the time to get a cupcake and celebrate how freaking well you both have handled the last year! Daily life is NOT for wussies! Congrats!
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