Writers block

My co worker, Summer reminded me that I haven't blogged in almost three weeks (before yesterday)...and It's true! I haven't. This time of the year, I try more to be OUTSIDE and enjoy the things and people around me, then to really worry about journalling and blogging.

I have had a few other reasons why I haven't been writing as much too. Call it writers block if you will, but recently it has come to my attention that I may be perceived that of the dumb blonde. In high school that's what I was labeled as. My peers and those around me had called me "fake", "too happy", "ditzy" and other names of that genre. Undoubtedly I'll take full accountability for not being the brightest crayon in the box and caring more about socializing then studying. I use my creative part of the brain, more then I do my puzzle logical side. I act and sometime speak impulsively and that in turn sometimes gets me into to trouble, but the reason for my writers block for the last few weeks is...

I know who I am. I know I'm not dumb. I've got charisma, but I've also got real concerns about humanity, religion, politics, and I want to express them. One because it irks me that sooo many find the negative things and sulk in them. Id like to shed light on my perspective on how things CAN be positive and that what I am saying is not just fluffy nonsense.

Now that I am NOT in school, I realize how important learning and forming your own opinions actually is. It's vital especially if you want to survive.

I'm not seeking out recognition or fans, I  Just want my words to be validated and respected. I don't want to be written off before I'm even given a chance. 

So while I have a lot of thoughts stirring on my brain. I'm searching for the right words...