Mr Scroog nor the Grinch ever visited our house. To say the least.. If I hadn't watched the movies on these certain characters I would have never known that people even existed in the world that didn't like this special occasion.
The Grinch did finally come around though. It was when I was 17 years my Dad had passed away just a little under a year , we had moved to a new town, and My Mom had been remarried that Christmas had changed. I don't want to say it was bad or empty, but it was certainly different sharing it with another family. Christmas was good, but it had lost a lot of its magic at the time for me. It just brought back memories and feelings I thought I would never enjoy or feel again. The Grinch had stolen my Christmas.
That was not the case forever, I did feel the magic once again when I fell in love with my sweetheart :) I recall working for Pacific Sunwear at the University Mall and having all the interesting shoppers pass by. They were all laughing and smiling. I loved watching them pass by. I remember saving all my pay check to get James a Billabong hooded sweatshirt, leather jacket, and cologne (Yes... I was in love!!!). I remember going to Salem pond lights and opening our gifts from each other and how romantic it was! I remember talk of getting married and how surreal it felt! I remember the promise ring that had a crystal and Forever engraved in it. (I still wear it today--along with my wedding ring) Yes... The Magic of Christmas came sparkling back into my life!!! Mr Grinch never returned to steal it away from me again...
When I got married though someone else decided to visit. His name was Mr Scroog, he stressed me out! He let me see all the flaws in Christmas. The mess. The bad weather and traffic, all the money spent, all the time wasted on fluff. He made me feel bad for the calories I ate and he even made me mad at my family. Bah hum bug! I hated Christmas! Mr Scroog didn't take anything away... He gave me something. He gave me a BAD attitude!
This last year in a half I had another visitor. He came and visited me when I needed him most. He understood how I felt. He understood my worry, and he literally spoke verbally to me telling me "it would not always be this way". I believed in his words. They gave me hope. I hoped that one day things would be better, and he promised me that someday they would. He calmed my nerves and he taught me how to relax. He taught me not to worry about calories, time, or presents. He taught me to focus on family, friends, and people. He was my biggest coach, and it took lots of training. Circumstances would arise and so would my stress levels, but I'd pray and he'd consult and guide me on what to do in that particular situation. He never left me on my own, if ever I had question he was there. He forced me out of my comfort zone, there were things that were not easy for me to do. Sometimes I had to go to a party where I was shy and nervous, but I went and I realized it wasn't so bad. The world didn't end like I thought it might would .
It's taken quite sometime to get to this point, but now I understand what all the fuss is about! It's 6 days until the big day, and I feel like a little school girl again. I have butterflies. I am estatic for Christmas! I know church will be great and that it will touch my heart. I can't wait to see James face to see what I got him. I can't wait to see my parents and family, and I get shivers down my back when of think of the REAL meaning of Christmas and how much the Lord and his Son Jesus Christ has not only transformed this season but my entire life so that I can enjoy whats around me.
Yes... I've had a Santa Christmas, A Grinch Christmas, a Scroog Christmas... and a Christmas filled with Christ and and I can honestly say that the one centered on Christ is the one that's better then them all combined, but don't take my story or word to believe it. Try it out!
Merry Christmas All, and a Happy New Year!!!
4 comments:
That's very clever. I can't wait to see your Christmas blog to see how it all turned out!
Merry Christmas Kira <3
Not only was that such a cute and clever idea, it really touched my heart. Thanks for sharing it, Kira! I've been a scrooge too long!
That was a beautiful post! You are such a great writer! :) And you are exactly right about putting trust in the one who knows everything and can calm our fears, HE will calm OURS! :) LOVED, LOVED, LOVED this Kira!
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