This too will pass.

About a week or so ago, I had a panic attack. I woke up, went to the bathroom and I was drowned with a flood of emotions. My heart started beating fast, my palms started to sweat, and I started to cry un-controllably. I could not  concentrate or focus on much of anything. For those of you who have had a Panic Attack know what I am talking about and how truly scary and miserable they are. Those of you who have not had one (count your blessings). Its probably one of the hardest things in all my adulthood that I have had to endure.  I am not trying be dramatic or ask for sympathy towards me. Its a burden that I have had to suffer since Jr High. Its not something that is easy for me to even admit I've had to go through. You see.. Its hard to admit weakness. You feel you may be judged unfairly, however I do have a purpose to write these feelings down.

My purpose for this post is not to complain but to fill you in on some things I have learned from this. Maybe you can apply, add, or disregard it in whatever you may be going through- A loss of a loved one, becoming a new mother, addiction, depression, divorce, Or whatever it may be! This is what has helped me.

1- I have learned that life is not fair. :( (Its a sad reality, but its true! If only the honest and hard working were as wealthy as the cheaters and liars! Thats not how it is, nor how it will ever be. Look at Joseph Smith he was a GREAT person, but his life was NOT easy. *sigh*  (I Don't let  this get me down though.. Justice will be handed out in another Life. )

2-If  I cant change it- Accept it! If I cant accept it- Change it! 

3-This one is my favorite, I use it in Everything. Happiness is a choice! Choose to be happy. Don't let anyone choose how I feel but myself. Its hard, but its totally doable.

4-Pray for help. Too often I have thought to myself. "I wont pray about finding lost keys.. Thats not important enough." If its Important to me, its important to God.

5- Pray for comfort. (He will not leave you comfort-less) A lot of times, God will let me go through hard experiences so that we can learn something of value.Something HE wants me to learn. Sometimes that lesson is just to rely on him and to come to him. . Of course hes there to ease the burden and make them light.

6- Count your blessings. Often times when I am down, I am not looking at the bigger picture. Just look at my essentials. I have a house, a family, friends, food on the table, and I live in the Greatest Place to live in the World. America. I am Free. There is a lot in this world to notice and to be grateful for.

7-Help others! God put us here together for a reason. He put us here so that we can inspire and uplift and learn from each other. My grandma told me something a while ago She said "My life is not about me" . WHAT!!!! That doesn't even make sense! Oh.. but it does! When I help others others I gain life long friends. What would this life be like if I  were all alone?! Pretty sad I tell you. Pretty sad indeed.

8-Write a Journal. This can help sort out my  emotions and feelings with out going Ape inside! plus its a good way to keep record of good and hard times in my life. Or  Blog! Its easier and faster! :)

9-Go to the gym. Blow off some steam. Its been scientifically proven that working out gets your blood pumping going and makes you happy! (simply put)

10- Find a hobby. Find something I enjoy to do everyday. Its okay to take time for myself! I can find new talents and make life new and interesting. It can also give me something to look forward to

11-Love myself. Try not to be so hard on Myself. I am pretty great! I am a child of God. Don't compare myself to others, I don't know what they are going through.  Focus on the things that I am good at and who I truly am, not what I lack.

And the 12- Endure to the end. Like all good stories... I will get a happy ending.(which i have)  This too will pass. :)

BTW.. I hope this doesn't come off as preachy or holier than thou type of thing. I mostly just wrote this to keep a record for what I am learned, and if helps you.. Thats great too. :)