Dear Kira and all Moms.
I have to say that being a mom has
been so much easier then I thought, and not to brag- but I've done so
much better then I ever would have dreamed. I'm so proud of myself and
how much I've grown in motherhood. She is my greatest pride and
accomplishment.
That being said sometimes I feel very isolated.
I'm a very social and active person. I feel somewhat forgotten. There
isn't much me time. Even at work during my breaks, I'm pumping. When I
want to do something, its hard because I'm nursing and have to find a
sitter it just doesn't happen or isn't worth it.
Most of the
time, I'm fine assuming the role. In fact I welcome it. I love being a
mom and I'm okay with my daughter taking the spot light. Today was the
straw that broke the camels back. My husband is going down to St George
to get a bike and I feel slight jealousy. I wish that I could take a
small trip to get myself something. I haven't done that since before I
was pregnant.
I know this feeling comes with the territory, and I
know that this moment of selfishness will fleet far from me as soon as I
look into my precious babies big blue eyes.
Right now though.. I
just want to remind you and all the others out there who feel like me
from time to time to say thank you and you're appreciated. Thats all you
want anyways. Just to to be validated. You may not get from your baby
who can't talk. You may not get it from your husband who is unaware of
how many times you wake up to attend to every cry or whimper because he's
fast asleep. You think no one sees you, but **I** do and thank you.
You're doing great. Keep up the good work. Its all worth it.
Sincerely Kira
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