Being sick for the 1st time

Wanna know one of thee worst things to experience while being a parent?

Seeing your child suffer.

It doesn't matter if it's a small cold, a stomach bug, a bump on their head, or something more serious. It's horrible!

It started Saturday afternoon at around 3.

Livi wouldn't eat her bottle. She looked disgusted by it. Which she has NEVER done before. Most of the time she starts to smile and giggle when she see her bottles, and she even FREAKS out when she's done  until you burp her. Then she's happy as a clam. So I knew this was out of character.

I knew she wasn't feeling good and I started to freak out. James was gone and I had a mini break down. She wouldn't eat. I tried to remain calm around her, but when he got home, I silently went into the bathroom and cried.

I felt/feel so bad. How did this happen? Was it my milk? Was it something I ate? Did I not clean the bottles good enough? Did I take her some place to catch a bug? The questions persisted and to this day, I still feel like even though these things do happen and it was not intentional. I feel responsible.

Later that night, I got it together and we watched a tv show as a family. She actually was squaking, cooing and just being her goofy usual self.

Her just chilling with daddy watching Raising hope. She loves being independent and sitting up just like a little person! (Stop growing up LIVI!)

When it was time to put her to bed, we tried to feed her a bottle of my milk. She drank 2/3 and then threw it all up. I was really starting to worry, so I told James to make a some of the organic formula I had recently bought to see if it was my milk that was upsetting her tummy. She drank 2/3 ounces again and then threw it up. Nope, it wasn't my milk. She def had a upset stomach.

Poor baby. She was sucking her hands so I knew she was hungry. I didn't know what to do for her. I finally let her nurse a little as opposed to a bottle. Normally she REFUSES to do this because it's so much work for her. But she sucked for a few minutes and got just enough out that she could sleep.

Later at around midnight. I was able to get her to drink 2 oz and then she went back to sleep for 5 more hours.

The next day was a little bit better. The first little bit in the morning she was able to drink her bottles, but she sipped them very slowly and gagged a few times. but she didn't throw them up.  At around 10 I decided to get her ready for the day and I took her temp. It was 99.0. Which is a low grade temp. She def had some sort of bug. I gave her some infant ibuprofen and that seemed to help a bit. Her fever went down and she acted happy. She was a sweet heart most the day. We snuggled and bonded. After the ibuprofen wore off she started to get a bit fussy and warm again. So later that night we gave her a luke warm bath, lotioned her up. Gave her a full 5 oz bottle , and swaddled her in the lightest weight blanket we had.  That seemed to help tremendously.

I hope we are on the up mend. If she isn't better by today, we will take her to the doctor.

Being a parent has been the absolute best thing in my entire life. On the other side of the token, it def has some challenges.

That's okay though, I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. The good or the bad.