38 weeks and 5 days

So the picture says 38 weeks and 2 days... but it's now 5.

I went to the Doctors yesterday. I am still 70% effaced and now Im dilated to a 3. She has dropped and I pee ALL the time. I've gained 35 pounds so far and all measurements seem good. Baby girl is posterior right now-but Doc says she'll most likely flip. I think I have passed part of my plug, and I also think I have been leaking colestrom. I've had some sharp jabbing pains which I read generally is just the baby sitting on a nerve. I've had a few Braxton hicks and POSSIBLY even a few real contractions. I'm really not sure though..

I am feeling pretty good physically. I really can't complain in that department.  Mentally I am SO done. I feel like I've been more moody lately. I think it's because everyone keeps saying "Any day now." and it feels like a eternity. Each passing day I think "maybe today is the day" and then the day passes and I get bummed. At this point the pain of labor doesn't even scare me.  It kind of reminds me how when I had morning sickness everyone kept saying "It will only last 3 months." Well first of all, 3 months to feel like you've had the worst stomach flu is not exactly easy, and second of all my morning sickness lasted 5 months thank you very much.

Sorry if I sound negative. I'm really fine-just ready to be done.. Let me repeat SOOOO ready. I even feel really prepared.  I feel proud of myself I really feel like I have everything I need for the most part. I'm sure there will be little surprises that I don't know about, but for the first 2 or 3 months I think we are set.

Everything has all slowly worked itself out and I really can't think of too many things that I still feel like I need to do.

I guess thats part of the reason why this period has felt so hard. I'm a doer. I like to be active, engaged, and working towards or on something, but everything is pretty much done.. and I feel I can't really put a ton of focus into anything else until I have her. I'm trying not to watch too much tv, or read too much as I know that when Im on maternity leave Ill get LOTS of that.

So for now.. we sit and wait. Let the count down begin.