Update

Yesterday- June 24th, 3 weeks and 1 day from when I got my blood drawn, I got a call back from my geneticist. I had nervously wrote her an email asking her if my test results had come back. (I couldn't find the courage to call) I honestly wasn't ready for a response, but my Husband prompted that I should ask. Knowing that I would inevitably find out eventually, I reluctantly pressed "send" in my gmail.

Two or so hours later, I was at work talking to a co worker when I saw the telephone number from Utah Valley Medical Center pop on my phone. I hesitated, I thought about letting it go to voicemail, but then I wondered if I would have questions and decided I should probably pick up.

"Hello?" I muttered softly.

"Kira! This is Danielle. I'm  returning your email. I checked last Friday to see if the results had come back, and they hadn't. When I got your email this morning though, I checked again and they are in."

Me: "Oh..." I paused. I was half hoping they would be delayed.

"Yes, they came back, and I have some good news."

 Me:  "You do? " My mind started racing. What does good news mean? For the last 2 or so months I've been mentally preparing myself to brace the idea and concept that I might potentially be a carrier for a dangerous even fatal disease. I hadn't given much thought at to them coming back positive.

"Yep, you're not a carrier for Myotonic Dystrophy!!! You're not even close actually. For the cells to even be considered mildly mutated your repeats would have to be at LEAST 150. You're results came back as 9 and 11. Which is a totally normal range. Congrats. "

Me:"Are you serious? Thank you SO much for checking. You've made my Manic Monday -Marvelous. Thank you ! Thank you! Thank youuuuuu!"

"You're welcome. Have a good day."

As soon as the call ended I shouted "YES!!!!!!!!" I work in Sales, and so everyone around me assumed I got a huge sale.

"How much was it for?" A co worker asked.

I replied. "It wasn't a sale. It's BETTER then a sale! I got my test results back and I'm not a carrier! I'm not a carrier! I've got to tell James and my mom and and and and...." and with that they clapped and I ran off to call whoever who pick up the phone to talk to me.

I texted, called, sent emails to all that knew about my circumstances. Everyone was so kind and happy for us. James and I decided to celebrate and go out to dinner and to a movie. We went to see Monsters INC and went to Subway. It was great time.

It's kind of ironic that my last post is about miracles. Surely this was a miracle in my life, and a tender mercy.  I'm relieved and elated! Yes! Yes! Yes! Yes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**UPDATE**

I'll admit. When this first happened. I had a bit of whiplash. My life did a 360, and then another 360 in a matter of just a few weeks. While the news was great-It was hard to believe. Ever since I got the test, I've been trying to wrap my head around the real possibility of having a disability, and possibly never having children. Life lacked enthusiasm or optimism at that point.  It's been a REAL mind game to try and stay upbeat. I've been more of a skeptic as of recently. Which is not my nature. To give you a example. After I got the test results back my mind instantly started jumping to conclusions and different scenarios. Some of my following thoughts were "Your Mom has MS, you didn't get tested for that. What if your children have that?" This caused great anxiety. Just as one trial passes another one starts to surface. Then I got to thinking and I've come to a conclusion and it's something I've learned before many times over again. It's that Satan really likes to use fear against us. To use for his own agenda. Ever since James and I have tried to start a family we've been tested immensely. Coincidence? I don't think so.

I've always said that while ignorance is bliss, knowledge is power. When you know better you can do better. That's why I got the genetic testing for Myotonic Dystrophy. So we could make a informed decision. This is no different. So I decided I was putting an end to this once and for all. I googled causes for MS and it turns out that MS is not proven to be inherited, however there does to seem to be a link between genes and environment. So I called my Mom and we had a discussion. She's the only one in our family with MS, and she called her doctor and asked what were the chances of me getting MS or my children and the specialist said that it's about 2-4 percent for me, and probably less for my offspring. That's not a 100 percent, but it's good enough for me. There are no guarantees in life and there never will be. It's that way for a reason. To have develop faith.

I haven't always exemplified great faith. Ive let darkness take the reins.. I've been blind sighted.  I wish I could say I was perfect at handling the situation. I wasn't though. My problems overpowered and I became defeated. We all will struggle, but please don't let life become jaded for you just because things aren't going your way. Don't let the world scew (sp?) your thinking that life's only one way. Don't let politics get in the way. Don't stop believing in humanity.  Don't let the news depress you. Don't let your fears scare you.. I've been there. I'm telling you it wasn't fun and it wasn't reality.

I'm human, and my reaction was natural. There is nothing wrong with suffering. However, sometimes we suffer more then we have to. Through the atonement of Jesus Christ there is a easier way. I know I've wrote about this before, but it's because it's something that I strongly believe in.  There is sooo much good in the world if we just take the time to look around.

One tender mercy after another is being made manifest to me.  I know hat he wants for me- Happiness. Gods love is clearly evident. I've witnessed it time after time again. I don't know what my future holds, but I do know that God lives. He has a plan for me and for you. It doesn't matter if you have the best genes, fortune, or fame, tragedy hits everyone alike. The one thing I'm learning  however, is how kind, gentle, generous, our Father actually is. EVEN when it doesn't seem like it. Take the time to see his hand in your life. You wont regret it.