TEN

Ten Secrets 10 things you might not know about me

This is the hardest one yet, because I am a very upfront kind of person. There isn't much that I hide or keep to myself.

I may have to just change this a little, and have it be 10 things you may not know about me.

1. Okay so first thing first. Something you may not know about me. Remember how I told you that chocolate is my favorite dessert and that cake doesn’t really do it for me? Sometimes, Ill buy a cupcake at walmart and lick the frosting and then discard the rest. Ill never spend more then a dollar on one if thats my plan and I KNOW, It's horrible! I try to be conservative in spending money and this is such a waste! I feel pretty guilty about it. If James is around though, Ill let him have the rest and then I don't feel so bad. 

2.I sleep on top of my bed comforter. I'm kind of ocd about things being in place and since I don't have time to make the bed in the morning every day. I sleep on top and then put a separate blanket on top of me  that I can hurry and just fold and hide in the closet. haha

3. I read my scriptures at work during lunch break. I use to read them in the morning, but then when I started working out  super early  and well it made it difficult. I tried doing it before, but then I always felt rushed, and if I did it at night time, more often then not it didn't happen. So this works. It's not perfect. I hope someday when I'm part time, or a stay at home mom then I figure out something that works a little better.

4. Despite how much I love and adore my family, our relationship isn't how I  envisioned. I know a big part of this is because of my dad dying and my mom remarrying.  I feel almost like the black sheep in the family. I don't want to say black because I don't think anyone really thinks I'm a rebel or anything, but just that I stand out-that I'm different. I don't agree with a lot of the things they personally believe. A lot of what they say makes me angry and frustrated, but because of the health of my Mother and Brother, I bite my tongue and just let it go. I know that loving them is more important than getting hung up on the details.

5. I'm not good at is visiting my family either and they don't live terribly far away.  So I don't have that excuse. This is mostly my fault. I do have my reasons, but none of them are really justifiable most of my reasons are just that I do feel different, and it doesn't feel like "home" to me. It's a little uncomfortable and painful I guess. It's hard to see a different family, and people whom I love in such poor health. I feel like a outsider looking in, and like there is nothing I can do to help them or for them to help me. I do love them and don't get me wrong, I do see them on major holidays, special occasions, and when I'm in town. So in the average year I do see them several times. I also call my mom every day and we talk for a few minutes about things. She is a close friend of mine It's also not like we spend that much more time with James family who DO live in town, but it's just that I have these feelings that make it more predominate. So I'm not neglectful, were just not as intimate or as close as I would like to be and I DO plan on changing that.

6.I watch waaaaay more tv then I care to admit. Especially during the winter. I'm not a couch patatoe or anything.  I do try to fill my days with helping others, working, being active, and having purpose in my life and I know that when I watch that much tv I'm being distracted from the spirit. Not because what I'm watching is that terrible, but it's that I'm not listening. I love TV, and I love watching things with James, but as the days pass by and by. I realize how much of a waste it is. I'm hoping that when we have children I can spend a lot more of my time being with them then being glued to the tube.

7. I sleep eat. Some people sleep walk, I sleep eat! Which is a terrible terrible habit. I'm not going to put myself down here, because I do try to be healthy and keep my body in shape and I do pretty good most of the time, but If you think I'm counting calories, or exercising every day.. I've lead you astray. I eat A LOT, and that's okay. Eating helps our metabolism work, though I would like to be conscience before I inhale more then I can handle. So this is something I need to work on.

8. I don't weigh myself, and I hope I never will for the rest of my life, but I guess well see how that pans out. I believe in being healthy, but I don't believe in living my life according to a number, . Of course I don't judge others who choose to though. It's good at keep tract and on target, but at this point in my life it only discourages me. Im much happier with out it.

9. Do I get into to glamour, beauty, and fashion? Absolutely.  However I do believe in being true to one self. There is nothing wrong getting ready for the day and making yourself look and feel beautiful, but there is a difference in doing it because you feel you have to and then doing it because you want to.Some may not know what I am talking about, but I think most of girls know the pressure that is put on us. I learned this that hard way. That's not to say we shouldn't put our best effort into look our best though we have to pull the plug at some point. For each person it may be different and thats OK. I'm not judging anyone here or saying that any beauty enhancement, or product is BAD.But  I draw the line personally with eye lash, hair extensions,  or anything that requires a lot of maintenance. It's a expensive art for something that doesn't last and can potentially damage or pull out the real stuff!  They ARE pretty , but I don't think changing every little thing about myself is considered healthy. I bleach my hair sometimes(but Ive also gone natural, and died my hair dark), I get my nails done occasionally, and I wear make up- just as much as the next girl,  but I always remind myself that that I can go with out any of it, and the people who really love me will still think I'm beautiful and love me just the same.  So I guess what Im saying is. I do those things for ME because I actually do like it,but not for anyone else.


10. I sleep really well.For the most part I get around 8 hours of sleep, and it doesn't take me long once my head hits to pillow to get there. I accredit this to exercise and keeping a schedule. I generally go to bed around the same time every night, and I exercise reguarly to make me tired enough that when  the end of the day is near, I can pretty much shut my thoughts off, and go to bed. I'm sure that having a child will be a lot different, but I do thank my lucky stars for the sleep I get now, I feel so bad for others who suffer with insomnia like my husband :(

and that's all folks! I've completed the 10 day YOU challenge! :)