The Journey

Some of you, but not most of you know that James got laid off a couple of weeks ago. This has been a trial. (I know it's a trial for a lot of other families too).

It's been easier to get upset at each other, and to point the finger.

It's been hard to say No, I cant buy that.

It's been harder for James to find jobs. (And he is VERY good at it)

It's caused tension and confusion.

It's just be hard.

It happened when we are supposed to go on vacation.

A tire needs to be replaced.

The list goes on.

However, I *DO* have faith.

"Even if you cannot always see that silver lining on your clouds, God can, for he is the very source of light you seek. He does love you, and he knows your fears. He hears your prayers. He is your Heavenly Father, and sure he matches with his own the tears his children shed" -Jeffery R Holland

I know I mention my Dad a lot in my blog, but I still miss him a lot! As tribute to him, I must tell a short story of the life he lived. My Dad had muscle dystrophy, He fell a lot, was in the hospital a lot, but the next few days I would see my skinny little Dad out on our bumpy yard mowing the grass. He couldn't hardly physically walk, and yet he continued to work. There were times when he was on his knees, and yet he never asked my brothers or I to do it. He endured and he pressed forward.

"God expects you  to have enough faith and determination and enough trust in him to keep moving, keep living, keep rejoicing. In fact, He expect you not to simply face the future(that sounds pretty grim and stoic); He expects you to embrace and shape the future-To love it and rejoice in it and delight in your opportunities." Jeffery R Holland

I have faith. Faith is always looking forward, not backward. It's what keeps me going. I know my future is bright and that I will be okay. I am not going to physically die from this. :)  My step dad Cliff just found a job (so happy for them) and things are looking up for them. Things will eventually get better and when they do I will be more grateful. I know that because I know my Heavenly Father (and my physical Dad) is there for me. In this trial whether it be short, or longer (hopefully SHORT!) I have once again learned who I am and what I am can do. Even though this has taken a lot out of me, I still am so happy and so blessed. I love James so much, I really do. More then anyone or anything, and I have a wonderful house and wonderful beautiful friends. I have a body that can run, jump, swim and so much more. I have everything in the world that actually matters.


I will keep going and I will honor my Dad, by mowing the lawn even when I feel I can't. (Metaphorically speaking.. since I live in a apartment where that is done for me ;) )

I am sure James will find something shortly, but thats not the point.. The point is Life is a Journey, not a Destination. I will enjoy my journey, and continue to walk in faith .. and happily endure to the end.